Dear diary,

Well, I have been experiencing some problems with my friend, Patricia.

It all started when the summer begun, and as you know that I don’t go out much, so when I get lonely I call her aunt, for Patricia as no phone. When I call, sometimes I just want to come over or sometimes I just want to talk to her. So sometimes they’re busy so I can’t come over, fine. Sometimes I call just to talk to pat but she is always busy, so we can’t talk then, that okay. But sometimes I call too much and I realize that might be irritating, but she didn’t say. And it had reached at point when she rejected my calls and I know because when you call and it don’t ring and go to voice mail that means that the phone is turned off, or when it rings and ring out that means the might not hear the phone ringing or she maybe ignoring it and when it ring 1 or 3 times and go to voice mail that means that she rejected it and she did it a lot of times but once it reached moment when I realized that I should stop, because she must obviously don’t want to talk to me. I remember this once I called and it rang twice and went to voice mail, and I called again and it rang 3 times I had that feeling that she might not want to talk to me.

     But how could she!! I even called her aunt! I showed her great respect and I just can’t believe that she could do such thing!!!

That evil witch!! Hate her!

     A couple days after I was texting sattimma, a girl in my class. I asked her if she have spoken to pat. She said “no.” so I told her she can call her aunt and she said she won’t call because she thinks her aunt don’t like her and I told her “ it seems like she don’t like me either.” And she asks why am I thinking that? And I told her the story of her rejecting my calls. And she told me that some people are just like that. So I texted Patricia’s aunt tell her “thanks, thanks for rejecting my call if you don’t want me to talk to pat you can just say so, and to think I called you aunty, ha! I was wrong I don’t want to you again!” And I think I called her a witch.

The other day she called but it was Patricia I couldn’t hear her good but I just woke up, and I think she told me I was rood and I should call her back and neither should I come visit them. But I thought I don’t care but its really killing me inside. I really cant take it I think the day after that she called telling me to call her back I didn’t have any phone it was my mom’s and once again she woke me up. I was angry but yet I was confused for I don’t know why she calling me, after I told her to not call me and her aunt said she don’t want me to call her. But my mom had no credit on her phone to call her so I didn’t. Couple minuets later she called I couldn’t hear her good but I think she told me to call her back. I got angrier because if she wanted to talk to me she calls me because I sure as hell don’t want to talk to her!!

But I really do! I’m so confused!

Yesterday I drew a picture of us in the grass sitting and where smiling and it was very beautiful and I put her picture as my screen saver on my computer I fell like I was so obsessed and today I join the library although I have so many unread books at my house it was to get my mind off her and I also volunteered to work at the library because I feel if I just join that is not enough, I feel so happy and I cant wait to start working tomorrow! I almost feel like I’m over her.

Yours sincerely

P!NK!£  $@MU3L$

Horatia Samuels               feeling: proud

                                         Date: 24/7/12